Bittersweet intoxication

I used to hate the taste of wine

Bitter on my tongue

Burned my throat as it goes down

But now i crave 

For that bittersweetness

To complement my state of mind

And half eaten heart

I used to thought I was smart

That i would make the right decision 

Recognise nectar from poison

But i failed with such abandon

As i kissed you with unbridled passion 

Knowing that you are forbidden

Now i thirst for bittersweetness

To soothe my conscience 

And aching longingness

Bittersweet it was the day i asked

Is she really the queen of your heart?

In your silence it was evident 

Your lust for me pales in comparison 

Bittersweet it was to be desired

But cursed to never take a step forward

For fear a marriage would crumble

As one of its pillars falters 

Bittersweet it was to try and forget

All the laughters, stolen glances, and innocent innuendos 

To refuse the shoulder you freely offer

Bear the weight of my guilt alone

Bear witness to my mistakes, my failings

As I face the simple fact that

I am too greedy to be the other person