Morning Star

 From the very first night that you left

I keep expecting you to leave forever 

Maybe it was a self fulfilling prophecy 

Maybe i was the one who end up pushing you away

Either way we both knew it was not meant to be

How could it? 

When you are in the middle of your happily ever after, while

I am slowly digging my way out of the rubbles of my life

You promised to be here while i put together the pieces one at a time

I should have know better than to trust the words of a man

For a short while, you were diligently holding the torch, lighting my way

Every ready to catch me when I stumble

Offering your shoulder, planting kisses on my forehead 

Hand in hand leading me along your merry way

It wasn't long before you grew weary of me

My demons weren't gentle, night and day they pulled on their chains

Promising destruction and pain, bellowing out vile curses

My broken pieces were sharp and jagged, they cut into your skin

As you tried to mend them for me

It took merely four short months

For you to be poisoned by me

Slowly you start to keep your distance 

Your eyes morph from gentle and loving to careful and calculating 

The voices in my head begged me to latch on to you, my only salvation

From an existence so excruciating and bleak

Like a weed you tried to stomp me

Worry I will infest your perfect rose garden

And immaculate white castle walls

So I slink away defeated, further than the shadow of your tall walls could reach

Like Morningstar I too had a taste of heaven and was kicked out for my own foolishness...