The List

 I think I finally realise

I had been grieving from the very first day i met you

The weight was insurmountable 

I could not understand 

The ache in my heart

The tears that wont stop

The longing for you

While im asking you to go away

I think i finally understood 

The weight was all the love i felt for you

But i knew i could never express

Its all the ways i wish i could love you

And be loved by you

But it could not be

Because that would be wrong...

I have torn the list from my book

But its not that easy to separate you from my heart

I still keep the torn pieces 

But i am not adding to it anymore

I think i am finally ready to let go...